Someday No Drugs Is My Hope
Someday no drugs is my hope, but not the honest expectation of my future! I can not see a way forward that does not contain drugs, or more properly medications for my Bipolar 1 Disorder, Fibromyalgia, and Myasthenia Gravis.
With extreme control of my emotions and nerves, I could withstand the feelings of pain and sadness that come with the Fibromyalgia without pain meds. Although, I am trying to tell you it would be so difficult!
Four Decades Unmedicated
Diagnosed at the age of thirty-nine with Bipolar 1 Disorder, and upon examination discovered I was more than likely born Bipolar. Not medicated until diagnosis, I lived almost four decades as an unmedicated Bipolar 1.
Some Bipolars choose to live unmedicated, saying medications stifle their creative abilities! Artists throughout history have chosen to forgo any type of restriction as a way of putting their talent above their state of mind!
Remember, Van Gogh sliced off his ear in pursuit of his perfect work! And, yes, I’ve read both stories about his ear, have you? Google ‘Van Gogh’s ear’!😊
Medicated State of Mind
Years of Mania and Depression due to being in an unmedicated state, made me take my medications as they are prescribed religiously! For thirty-one years, I took my medications without question.
Hydrocodone – Oxycodone – Fentynal
The same physician placing me on drugs for Bipolar 1 Disorder in April 1990, also prescribed Hydrocodone for Chronic Pain. The Chronic Pain continued without cessation, and more types of pain arose.
Thus, I was taking the opioids for twenty-eight years by prescription by a Pain Specialist. For the last seven years, my schedule was for one pain pill, an Oxycodone every six hours as needed for pain. Yes, I needed a lot, as my pain level was eight, and I never felt a true measure of relief!
I searched for safe alternative pain relief and there was nothing that would provide relief without danger! Finally, I tried Fentynal, and it took care of the degree of pain, but I could not control it. Fentynal is too dangerous unless you are in hospital.
Allergic To Morphine
I am allergic to Morphine that eliminates a great many pain drugs for me.
CBD Oil – Pain Rub – Skin Care Products
CBD Anxiety & Pain Relief
CBD Oil enters my life and my Anxiety and Pain Relief was clear. Anxiety from a lifetime of anxious thoughts and feelings were given immediate relief upon taking CBD Oil! The tight knot sitting in the middle of my stomach simply let go for the first time in a long time.
I had never had this happen before without being highly sedated and this time my mind was clear. Just home from the doctor’s office, and I had not taken my Oxycodone. The THC side of Cannabis is psychoactive, but CBD is not! Good to know!
Knowing how well CBD Oil is handling my anxiety, I am ready to pursue pain relief! And I did, and also lowered my intake of Oxycodone until I quit taking them! The next month of mild withdrawals taught me a great deal about myself and opioids.
Opioid Dependent vs. Opioid Addicted
I went through this in July 2018, and it is now January 2019. In October 2018, I discovered through discussions with my Pain Specialist several facts. One of which was that although I had taken the opioids for twenty-eight years, I was opioid dependent vs. opioid addicted!
This was quite an eye-opener! Holly agreed with me that I definitely went through physical opioid withdrawals. Then she asked me to search my memory to see if I could truly find opioid craving? And I could not.
Narcotic Withdrawals – Diazepam (Valium)
Not like the narcotic cravings I felt and thought during Valium (Diazepam) withdrawals! Never so much as I feel when I run out of my e-cig substitutes! Panic! Fear! Got to do something! There! I do find addiction and craving!
Still to this day, and I stopped taking them a year ago next month, but even now I think when I get upset, “I sure could use a Diazepam!” Then I remind myself , “That crutch is over, and I’ll be just fine!” And I am. 😊
The withdrawals from the narcotic were not any fun at all! I did not have anything extra onboard, and yes, I was on plenty of medications for Bipolar and anxiety. I did have an excellent pain medication in Lyrica for Fibromyalgia.
So going into narcotic withdrawals I was fortified with pain medication. Onboard I did have psyche meds against anxiety and depression, basically a mood control medication. When nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea started I was miserable but I simply treated the symptoms.
While dealing with the gastric symptoms that hit me first, I found I was having even lower blood pressure than usual. I didn’t have it lowered to the point of being dangerous as some do during withdrawals.
Other Symptoms of Narcotic Withdrawals:
- Raise Blood Pressure
- Pectoral Muscle Spasm
- Cardiac Event
- Some people must truly be advised to go through withdrawals under the care of a physician!
- If you are in bad health, this means you!
Anxiety – Redicalm – CBD Oil
The second week, when the worst of the physical symptoms were
Just a few months later, I was introduced to CBD Oil and then I knew real relief! CBD does for me what nothing else does because it helps with my pain relief, too.
CBD is a natural herbal supplement, so I don’t consider it a drug. Every drug or medication I can take less of or stop, for that I am thankful.